So, something major rl happened first on saturday, and apparently, when it rains, it pours too.
I told etvo about it when it happened, but had no time to post.
Actually, I don't think I've ever mentally been in such a bad condition before. This has been a very trying time though I am always gazing at the light at the end of the rainbow. Yesterday I ended up skipping a class and going to seek legal advice instead.
Thankfully class was about an interesting topic today, and though my concentration was constantly dragged away then too it helped me to take my mind off things and stuff. And afterwards I settled some stuff too, and was able to calm down and read some fiction at the hospital. And so I have finally managed to get myself in an at least temporary relaxed state which is hopefully more long-term permanent. I think I can probably manage to fall asleep...
Should be able to continue from here. Have been almost not doing any schoolwork at all, though, and so should have to spend some time in that area to make sure I didn't get left behind. This means that grand theory book writing is delayed, and can't do extra chapters.
Hopefully this doesn't sound bleak. If it does, maybe I'm being melodramatic, which I can't help anyway. Regardless, thank you for your understanding!